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gramps I just lost your house along with everything in it. My mom and I no longer talk 
instead of being there when I'm now 3 months pregnant she has ignored me and tells me two weeks before About losing your house. She's changed so much since losing grandma. It's sad that she wont have the relationship with my baby like I did with you and grandma. She doesn't ask how I feel she isn't coming to the dr when I asked and she talks bad about me to strangers behind my back. Instesd of realizing I'm sensitive bc your home is nearly 38 years of memories she calls me rude to a virtual stranger
i can't forgive her it's the point I don't care to see her anymore she has made me sad pregnant and I love my baby too much to let anyone ruin that
I miss you and grandma beyond words the only two people I am related too to love me
please give me strength next week as its my last time in your home  

I say this every year but I can't believe it's another year, eight years without my Gramps. Today is one of the hardest days in my life, a day my life was changed forever. I lost the only father figure I had, I lost my gramps whom I spoke to at least ten times a day and saw all the time, I lost my best friend and my side kick. They say it gets easier over time, I still don't know how. I talk about you all the time and share stories. You were the kindest most loving person that everyone loved. You had a contagious laugh. I promise I will not relive what I witnessed eight years ago. I know you and Grandma would be ecstatic your little Dolly is having a baby. Grandma loved Pauly and was so happy I was getting married. She got to see different things in my life that I wish you would've seen. I can never truly express to anyone how much I miss you both. I try to only think of our happy times but it's days like today that hurt my heart. I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face and I need to remain calm and happy for the baby. I hope the baby has characteristics of you and Grandma, it will be like you both will live on. I love and miss you Gramps to the moon and back times infinity!

I still can't bring myself to making a site for grandma. I can't believe it's 7 months today I lost Grandma and in two weeks 8 years I lost you. You were both one of the closest people EVER in my life that's why it's so difficult going through life with you both not here. No words can ever convey how much i
miss you both. please continue to give me signs with grandma and visit me in my dreams

love you both to the moon and back times infinity  

Gramps, its 4 months today I lost Grandma, I never recovered from losing you and now I am trying to come to terms of losing Grandma the morning of my Bridal Shower. So much has been going on since losing Grandma and I am depressed and feel alone and very resentful and bitter. I miss you and Grandma beyond words. I still cant make a web site for Grandma, its the denial part still in me. During this grieiving time, I have to come to terms with losing the house I spent my entire life in. I feel like everyone has changed for the worse since you were here. Please give me a sign. I only get signs from Grandma in your house. I cry each day and night.

Gramps, today is twice as hard for me today. For one its Fathere Day and two, it's now 3 months I lost grandma which still seems not real. Two of my close people in my life aremy here and I feel empty. Today was a rotten day, nothing like the days I spent with you and grandma. I need a sign your together like we believe. I don't know how to go through life with you both gone. You were the best man and role model. They definitely don't make them like you anymore. 

Dear Gramps, I swore this year I wouldnt do what I always do...look at the clock and relive that horribe heart wrenching day. Right now its a little after 11 am,  this was when I walked in and you were watching the Price is Right. The next two hours what I relive in my head literally kills me inside. They say it gets easier, well it hasnt but since Pauly I have learned to love life and live life again. I know your smiling down that your dolly is getting married to a man that I know you would love. I believe you sent him to me when I needed him the most. When I tried on my dress and veil I cried thinking of you since you were supposed to lift the veil after you walked me down the aisle. I know that day like every other day you are with me. You were with me at the Drs yesterday I could hear you in my head calming me down. I want to thank you again for me a dad figure to me for 29 years, so much more than my Gramps, you were my best friend. You never missed anything in my life, you made me the woman I am today. I have old fashioned morals that you helped instill in me. Pauly says im one of a kind and that I owe to you since you helped raise me. I miss and love you with every fiber of my being to the moon and back.

Gramps, I know now you truly do know what happens here even though your not physically here. All the dreams leading up to my engagement came true. I would do anything to have been able to call you and say your dolly got engaged and is planning a wedding. Thats what hurts that I couldnt but you knew before anyone here when it was happening, you even knew what my ring looked like. I think after all this time this can help bring some changes to my life about losing you since you are still apart of my life in a different way. The dreams you come to me in have all come true. I found the man of my dreams that I know you sent to me. I never knew I could smile again, laugh again or enjoy life again after losing you but Pauly has caused me so much happiness words cant explain. I found my wedding dress yesterday. Grandma is so happy and you know she has been through alot. I got my wedding venue of my dreams, my dress, I get to marry the man of my dreams. I know your watching from heaven but after trying on my veil I started to cry because you were the one suppposed to life the veil on my wedding day. I need you to give me strength for what happened to me still dont know why something bad happened on the happies day of my life. I miss you and as im sitting here cant believe its 7 years in just 2 days. Love you and miss you to the moon and back

Gramps, so much has been going on and no less near your anniversary. I can not believe it's going to be 7 years, I have changed so much because a huge part of me went with you. Now with everything going on with Grandma it's very hard to deal with. Crazy how life is one way one day and the next day everything can be upside down. You were my go to person for everything and I keep praying you give me signs so I know what to do. I am having one of those days where I want to grab the phone and call you instead I have to write on here. Gramps miss you and love you to the moon and back times infinity. 

Dolly 

Gramps, yesterday was such a mentally and emotionally draining day but I can hear you as I spent the day talking to you. You were Grandma's guardian angel. Its beyond a miracle at her age she made it through this. Yesterday was one of the hardest days I had to go through. I went back to a place I know you wouldn't want me in but everything happened so quick. As I am going through this and approaching 7 years of you not here. Still can't believe its been that long. I am beyond grateful that I still have Grandma at my age and that she made it through surgery. Just keep watching her over during this recovery stage and continue to watch over me. I easily shut the world out when I go through things alone. Hearing you in my head with what you would say if you were here is what got me through yesterday. Yesterday was an eye opener to a lot to me. I just needed a hug and someone to tell me it will be alright. I miss you and love you more than words can convey to the moon and back times infinity.

Love Dolly