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| Maxine |
Friend of heart |
September 29, 2010 |
For Vincent--I Heard a Whisper
Last night I heard a whisper...Could not think what to do...
But I felt sure that what I heard,might be the heart they knew.
The voice was light and funny, and filled with childlike glee
It clearly said,"How are my girls? How's MaryAnn and Dee?"
"I want them to be peaceful..for I can fly so free...
That I am with them EVERY DAY!--Tell them to watch for me!"
So, I am here to tell you both...He gave my ear a tug!!!
And said ..."Girls!! Sit down, close your eyes, and feel my little
HUG!!"
With Love From Max
| Danielle |
Forever broken hearted |
September 28, 2010 |
These last few days I have been nothing but a mess. I have been searching for my old cell charger so I can upload videos onto this site and when I finally found it, I looked at the videos and just broke down..again. It was heart wrenching to see you laughing, joking, talking with me. Looking at a still picture and watching a video are two different extremes and I tortured myself this week of all weeks no less. I felt the same agony I did last September 30th after I looked at the videos. I feel sick to my stomach this week. I have horrible flashbacks to last yr at this time which by the way feels as though it just happened yesterday. I still cant accept the fact that in just two days its one year that your gone. How the hell is it one year already. I feel in denial that its been that long that I have seen you. I guess its because I dream of you almost each night for the past year. That is the only time I feel at peace because I'm talking to you and with you in my dreams. It feels so real that when I wake up its like a stab in the heart yet again to realize its just another dream. Well I only hope I have these dreams of us still talking and laughing for the rest of my life. I'm crying again and cant see the keys so I will leave you with..I miss you so incredibly much and love you to the moon and back Gramps.
| Danielle |
So sad |
September 22, 2010 |
If Roses grow in Heaven,
Lord please pick a bunch for me,
Place them in my Gramps' arms
and tell him they're from me.
Tell him I love him and miss him,
and when he turns to smile,
place a kiss upon his cheek
and hold him for awhile.
Because remembering him is easy,
I do it every day,
but there's an ache within my heart
that will never go away.
| Danielle |
Missing you terribly |
September 20, 2010 |
Gramps, I feel even more depressed than before. I never thought it would be possible to feel more sad but I do. I hate that I cant pick up the phone and I hate that I cant see you. This was the hardest and worst year of my life and I have been sick for a majority of it. I cant imagine not having you here for the rest of my life. It just feels so weird and empty not having you. I don't think I can ever feel ok not having you for anything that happens in my life. You literally never missed anything in my life and I talked to you about everything so its always going to be an empty place not having you here. I try to hide how I really feel when I'm around Grandma so I don't upset her but inside I'm nothing but a huge mess. Lately I keep having horrible flashbacks to that awful day and its making me sick. There aren't enough words in the dictionary to emphasize how much I miss you. This is truly the worst pain in the world. Nothing will ever be the same.
There are no words to describe the pain and emptiness I feel inside. I miss you with all of my heart. Love you Little One
| Danielle |
So sad |
September 20, 2010 |
In 10 days it will be a year I lost you and the pain is worse now than it was then. Each day I miss you more. I still cant believe its been almost a year, most of the time I really feel like I just got to see and talk to you. Maybe its because I dream of you almost every night. My heart is forever broken Gramps. Miss you more than anything and love you to the moon and back
| Danielle |
Happy Grandparent's Day Gramps |
September 8, 2010 |
This is my second Grandparent's Day that I cant celebrate with you, at least last year I was able to still be with you on that day even though we were in the hospital it didnt feel like much of a holiday. I sent Grandma a gift today even though she told me not too, I have to keep up with that tradition. Love and miss you SO MUCH!
| Danielle |
Approaching an even more difficult time |
September 2, 2010 |
As your one year anniversary is coming I wrote you a poem:
Dear Gramps,
I still can’t believe its been a year
I would do anything to have you here
I miss you more as each day goes by
I can’t say your name without wanting to cry
It feel like just yesterday I called you on the phone
God only knows what I would do to bring you home
Gramps, you were my Best Friend
From the day I was born until the very end
I can hear your laugh in my head
Even though I have countless memories, so many tears were shed
I miss our jokes and all the funny times we had
I will forever be grateful that you were like my Dad
Love Danielle
| Danielle |
worst 11 months of my life! Miss You Little One |
August 30, 2010 |
| Danielle |
Miss you Little One |
August 27, 2010 |
Little One, as the days get closer to the one year anniversary I feel my heart breaking more each day. This has been the hardest 11 months of my life. I miss you terribly.
| Danielle |
Missing Gramps |
July 31, 2010 |
I ordered a seeds of life kit from 1800 flowers and I'm planting a bur oak tree in memory of you. It started to blossom already.
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