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It doesn't feel like this is my third Christmas without you. It feels like just yesterday you were opening all your gifts with a big smile on your face while wearing Stacey's Santa hat. I can't begin to describe how weird it is that I can't have you here for Christmas. Christmas was always my favorite holiday and I have millions of memories of you and I would do anything to have a million more. A huge void in my heart will last forever. I try to make the holidays as close as it was when you were here for Grandma. I keep looking at the Christmas pictures from our last Christmas Eve together. You always lit up like a little kid when opening your gifts. I always loved getting boxes half the size of you, that was hysterical. It doesn't feel like all this time has passed, maybe its because I am always seeing you and talking to you in my dreams. Each dream is so real that when my alarm goes off in the morning it makes me sick to my stomach to realize once again its just a dream. I know I'm fortunate to have you come to me in my dreams at least every other night, I just pray it will last forever since that's the only time we could be together. I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face as usual so I will leave you with, I miss and love you to the moon and back times infinity. Gramps, there isnt an hour that has gone by that I dont think of you. You are forever in my heart, mind and soul. You were the best Gramps, father figure and best friend any person could have and I am forever grateful to have had such a special bond with you. I will cherish those memories for the rest of my life and one day pass them down to my kids. LOVE AND MISS YOU TERRIBLY. XOXOOXOX

 

Grandma didn't want me to decorate your house for Christmas and for weeks I went back and forth on how to convince her. I know you would want her to have something up for the holidays. So the other night you came to me in a dream and I did exactly what I dreamt about and it worked! Grandma was so happy with it and put the tree and other Christmas plant near your pics. I know you always worried about Grandma and how she felt and if she was ok more than you worried about yourself so I know your looking down smiling that Grandma is happy at this moment. Gramps, I miss you more each day. There are so many things I wish I can call you up and tell you. I finally found a normal guy and I wish I can tell you about him. I miss your face and laugh so much. I would move heaven and earth to have you here. Were having Christmas Eve and Day here and I pray I'm "ok" those days. The Eve was always my favorite so I'm hoping to get through the night. We bought Grandma lots of great stuff. It's so weird that when I went to Macy's and all the exact sweaters and shirts I bought for you on our last Christmas are there this year. That was enough to make me feel like someone punched me in the stomach. I started buying Grandma her Birthday decorations. Were following in the tradition I had for you with the themed Birthday. Grandma's Birthday is going to be Mardi Gras. I'm sitting here once again with tears in my eyes so I will leave you with I love and miss you to the moon and back Little One. See you in my dreams where we get to be together for a brief time. MISS YOU XOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXO

Dear Gramps, tomorrow is my third Thanksgiving without you and it still feels beyond weird not having you here. I don't know when this will get easier. Were having Grandma and Uncle Danny here for Thanksgiving. It will be "easier" on me not having it at your house. However, I think were having my Birthday cake at your house and that will be nothing but sadness for me. Had my cake in your house for 29 years with you and to do it without you will make me so sad. Your little Dolly is 32 in a few days and all I can do is repeat in my head all the jokes you made when I was turning 30. Feels like a lifetime ago. I have been putting on a such a strong act lately with the holidays approaching because I'm trying to help Chris during this time. Ironic someone like me dealing with your loss can be of any help to someone who lost someone close but we have a connection and he seems to bring some of the old Danielle out. I would do anything to pick up the phone and call you and tell you all about him. I would gossip with you about guys like you were one of my friends and that is one of the things I miss so much. Every little thing I miss, every joke, every facial expression, every laugh, you name it and I miss it so incredibly much. Sending lots of love and hugs today and always. Happy Anniversary and Happy Thanksgiving. I'm grateful to have had such amazing memories and a wonderful role model. LOVE AND MISS YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK