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Well Gramps I woke up and once again had the urge to run to the phone to call you to wish you a Happy Father's Day. Another night of dreams so real that I woke up feeling like you were still here. Today is my second Father's Day without you and what I'm realizing is that all the second holidays sting a lot more. I thought I was in pain last year but I'm beginning to see I was so numb. I only would acknowledge today because of you. You were the only father figure I had since I was born. For 29 years I had you through good and bad no matter what. You never missed a Birthday, holiday, a graduation, honor society, award night, prom and everything else in between. I had you there all my steps of the way. I remember bringing you to college orientation too and how much you loved it. Some people weren't fortunate enough to share all the memories I have but it only makes it hurt a lot worse for me. You didn't have to step in and play the father role for me but you did. I learned a lot from you and respected your opinion more than others. It feels weird going through today not having anyone to celebrate it with. You honestly made growing up with no father an easy thing to do where most children would act out and do things they would later on regret in life. You made it so I never was upset or felt weird only having one parent. I feel so lost without you, there are no words to ever convey to anyone on this earth how much I miss my Gramps. I talked to you more than anyone and not having you here feels so strange and I don't know when this will ever get easy. As I'm sitting here there are a flow of tears over my keyboard so I want to thank you again for being there for me and always guiding me in the right direction. For always being the most dependable, genuine, loving, thoughtful and caring person. For all the jokes and memories I will cherish for the rest of my life. Love and miss you to the moon and back Little One.

Gramps, I've been extra blah lately. Danielle's grandfather just passed away in the hospital and it brought back so many horrific thoughts of our last minutes together. Besides myself, she is the only other person that had such a close bond to their grandfather. With Father's Day approaching its been harder for me. I told Grandma that Mom and myself will take her to a restaurant. I still cant believe how long you have been gone for. I swear half the time it feels like you were just here and the other half feels like its been eternity. There isn't an hour that I don't think of you and miss you terribly. I don't know when this will get easier. All I know this has been such a difficult time and only those close to me can actually comprehend. I miss your adorable face and all our jokes. I miss everything about you. Love and miss you to the moon and back,

Cant believe today is a year and a half that your gone. Not a day, not an hour goes by that I don't think of you. I miss you Gramps more than anything. This has been the worst and most difficult time of my life. I'm still struggling a great deal. The few true people that have been there for me from day one, I am forever grateful for but its still not easy having to turn to others when you were the one I turned to for everything in life. I can never convey enough to others how close we were. We had a beautiful bond and I'm extremely lucky to have you in my life for 29 yrs. Most people aren't fortunate enough to have Grandparents at that age,so I know I was blessed. It still feels so strange not being able to run to the phone and tell you a story or share a joke. Its amazing how almost every night I have a dream of you and its the most real feeling. It truly feels you are there with me. What I wouldn't do to have you back! I love and miss you so much Gramps.

When I woke up earlier my initial reaction was to the reach for the phone and sing to you and when I once again realized I cant it made me sick to my stomach. I'm sitting here with ears in my eyes as I remember all of our Birthday parties we had just you, Grandma, Mom and me. It was always a special, good time. I miss seeing your face light up like a kid on your Birthday. Everything down to the decorations for the themed parties and the personalized cake with your picture on it, is what I miss doing for you. This is your second Birthday without you here with me and I find it harder to deal with than last year, hard to believe I know. No Birthday or holiday can be the same. Mom keeps harping on about Easter and the thought of attending a holiday without you makes me sick all over again. Its just too hard to deal with these things when the most special person isnt there with you anymore. Just looking over and not seeing you there is like a kick to my stomach and a huge stomp on my heart. I love and miss you terribly Little One. Cant wait for the day to be over with!