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Little One, I'm going to the same mass at St. A's today that I always took you to for Palm Sunday. I'm going with Mom. I'm going to try and make the palm crosses like you always did for us. Jackie still has all the ones you made her in her jeep. I miss you so much.

Gramps, I went to visit you for your Birthday with Mom, Grandma and Lynne. She was nice enough to drive us. You know how Mom gets with me driving when I'm upset. She was right this time, there was no way I could've drove because it felt like I lost you all over again that day. I was a complete mess! I felt closer to you that's for sure but just pulling up and being there was like yet another stab to my already broken heart. I have been feeling extra lousy since then but I am glad that I went on your Birthday. I never missed your Birthday and I will never forget it either. Its a promise I will be there on your Birthday always and forever. Mom and I placed the snow globes I made along with the cards and palm crosses. I also took a picture of your parents with Mom and Uncle Anthony and enlarged it and placed it by their palm cross. I'm going to start my Father's Day gift to you shortly. Its good to take the pain your feeling and turn it into something. It made me feel good when I made you the snow globes so I plan on making you something for every holiday to come.   Its a guarantee I will be visiting you on Father's Day. I honesty think that day will be just as hard as my first Christmas without you but there is nowhere else I rather be and no one else that deserves attention from me on that day. I have to admit there are some days I wake up and go to pick up the phone to tell you something. You know how many stories and jokes we would've shared. I could write a book on the stories and jokes we had, you always said "never a dull moment with me". I tell people now the jokes and they said I was truly blessed to have that with you. I just would give anything to have more with you. I miss you terribly, there is really no way to describe this pain to anyone. Just the worst feeling imaginable. Miss my little partner in crime more than anything.

Gramps, I'm still sick from last week so I haven't been able to go out and look for a stand for the snow globes I made you. I wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday a couple days early. In case I don't get to sign on I want to send you some more Birthday wishes. I pray you give me the strength to not break down like I'm imaging I'm going too on Tuesday. Your first Birthday that your not here has me having the exact same emotions I had for the holidays. I always celebrated with you and showered you with gifts and goodies. I miss you so much. The little things like your laugh, smile and believe it or not that whistle. I feel real lost and lonely without you. Words can never convey to anyone on this earth how much you meant to me. Your one of the few people I knew I could count on. We talked about everything and anything. We laughed, joked around, gossiped, shopped, painted, fixed things, gardened, decorated and a million other things. We had a bond I have with no one else. I miss your adorable face so much it hurts, really hurts. My biggest fear was losing you so this pain is the worst. I will see you in my dreams later

Sending lots and lots of hugs and kisses from Grandma, Mom and myself. The three of us miss you so much and love you with all of our hearts!