Condolences
| Danielle |
Happy Valentine's Day in heaven |
February 12, 2010 |
Little One, by now I would've sent you a basket of goodies for you and Grandma and you would be complaining about how its too much but somehow you two would manage to finish it within days! I didn't send Grandma anything but I did buy her a little stuffed bear with Hershey kisses. It feels so strange buying a card just for her, I automatically go to the Grandparents section. I got a reminder the other day from 1-800-Flowers letting me know that last year at this time I placed your Birthday present order. That just started my day off bad! I will definitely be visiting you on your Birthday. It wont be easy for me at all. Then again nothing at all has been easy since I lost you. I miss our Birthday parties I would make for you each year. Just seeing your expressions and seeing you look like a little kid on Christmas made me so happy. Last year at this time, I was buying the "Casino Night" decorations. You would always try to get me to tell you which theme I was doing. Thank God I get to be lucky enough to have a dream of you almost every night. The dreams are so real and its like I'm really there talking to you. I miss you so damn much that I hate this pain I'm in. I love and miss you with all of my heart and soul!
| Danielle |
Missing you terribly |
February 5, 2010 |
Little One, I heard one of the songs that I would blast when you and me were driving. It made me think of the beginning of the summer. I would turn up the volume so loud and I would bang on the steering wheel and you would clap and try to dance a little in your seat. Then we would crack up laughing. You honestly at times seemed like I was driving with someone my own age. I loved teaching you all the songs I like and having you sing them. I miss all the fun times we had. Love and miss you!!!!!!!!
| Danielle |
Miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
February 3, 2010 |
| Honey |
I love you |
January 31, 2010 |
Gramps, Grandma wants to give you these early Valentines. She sends lots of love and hugs to you in heaven.
| Danielle |
4 months ago today my life changed |
January 30, 2010 |
Today marks the four months I lost you. Not a single thing has been the same, nor have I been the same. I try to act like the old me with certain people but God only knows I’m not going to be the same again. How can I be when I lost one of the few people I’m closest too. It’s the toughest thing waking up each day knowing I cant hear your voice. For 29 years I talked to you each and every single day. I saw you every week and now it feels so weird not having that. I’m done wishing most people would comrpehed that because I realized one thing in the last four months, no one will ever understand how close we were and how a bond like ours was stronger than most. You will be proud of one thing though, you always said “you can’t change people” well I’m done trying to make people realize things and act a certain way. I’m not going to sit here and get mad at the world and wondering why they don’t feel as awful as me. Some barely saw you and would call from time to time so how could they get my grief???? At the end of the day, you know I would’ve gone to the moon and back for you and how strong my love for you is. I’m grateful that I had such an amazing role model in my life. Too bad we don’t have more of you in this family. Too bad no one else in this family besides obviously Mom contributes to this site. Gramps, I’ve been so hurt with this family but I’m always going to remember what you would tell me….It would be nice for someone to share a memory or do something but like always I ask too much. It’s ok though because the one thing I know for certain is you knew how much I loved you and were always there for you. I’m extra sad today; these four months feel like eternity. I don’t feel so well today so I’m going to rest and hopefully see you in my dreams again. I love having dreams each night of you and me because its like your really there!! Love and miss you with all of my heart
| Danielle |
Miss you bunches! |
January 27, 2010 |
I was on my way to take Grandma to the Dr yesterday and my car didn't start. I felt so lost not having you with me because I could always rely on you to go to the mechanic with me and give me advice on cars since I don't know much about them. I could always rely on you and its rare that I can say I feel that way about most people in this world so losing you of all people is like a stab to the heart!! Not having you here is the worst pain!!! I will see you in my dreams. Love and miss you to pieces!
| Danielle |
My heart is forever broken |
January 23, 2010 |
The last few days for some reason my heart is aching even more. I honestly cant believe its almost four months since your gone. I would do anything in this world to see you again. I love and miss you with every fiber of my being. I wish more people could understand how I feel. This is the worst pain imaginable. My heart feels empty. I'm going to work on my memory book. I will see you in my dreams again.
Love always and forever, Your Dolly
| Danielle |
Miss you to pieces! |
January 22, 2010 |
Well Little One, today was another example of how I really was around you my entire life. Watching you fix things growing up has paid off now. Today another thing needed to be fixed in your house and of course Grandma gets nervous. Your bell wasn't working so she wanted me to take a look at it and if I couldn't do it then call an electrician. I remembered watching you a long time ago fix it and it all came back to me. Grandma was amazed how you taught me literally everything. Love and miss you with all of my heart and soul!
| Danielle |
Miss you |
January 21, 2010 |
| Danielle |
Miss you Little One!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
January 20, 2010 |
Little One, the strangest thing happened the other day when I was at your house. I was walking down the ramp thinking that I cant believe how you never got to see it and right when I got to the bottom of the ramp, I see a card standing up by the leg of the ramp with your name on it. The card looked as though its been through the ringer but the bottom half was a card telling you about the Yankees winning the world series. I bought a memory book and I started doing it last night. I even found a Delta playing card from the time you and Grandma took me to Florida. I miss and love you with all of my heart. Literally not a minute goes by that I dont think and miss you. Missing you more than anyone can ever imagine and understand!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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