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Little One, I bought some Easter decorations for your house to make things somewhat festive for Grandma. I also found a nice palm cross with a bow on the center to bring to you. Almost done making my Birthday gifts for you. I helped Grandma make you a card too. We miss you sooooooo much, even the cat outside your house that would follow you around still sits by the door probably looking for you. I have to try to get a picture of Stacey kissing your picture, its so cute. I'm going to bed now so I will see your adorable face in my dreams. Hope one day the pain wont feel as bad. In the meantime, I have my dreams of you almost every night and it feels like your there with me so its special. The signs that happen have me finally believing your always right next to me...especially last Saturday. That was something I cant even explain but you definitely let me know you were right there. I really miss telling you stories with what is going on in my life. I told you more things than I tell mom. I just started dating again and trying to tell mom about my date feels weird. For some reason you knew more about my dates than anyone, including friends. I have shared some funny memories of you and me on my dates and everyone can see how special you are to me and how lucky I was to have you for so long. Just wish it was a lot longer, you will always be the youngest 86 yr old!!!!!! Miss you and love you. I'm off to dream...that's where I get to finally smile and be happy

Little One, I came up with the idea to make you a snow globe. I was trying to find a plastic box for the beanie baby and came across a plastic snow globe so I started to put Happy Birthday and heart confetti inside. I'm going to cut out some Birthday graphics and insert them. It makes me feel a little better knowing I could still do something for you for your Birthday. I would do anything to have you here for a real Birthday celebration. I probably would've bought you another Donald Trump belt since you liked it so much last year. I always loved buying you gifts and decorating especially. I just miss you so much. You were always my number 1 sidekick. The funny thing is I would tell you more things than anyone else and now I'm realizing just how much I shared with you. Even down to my dates I would tell you gossip and stories. No one will ever have the funny reactions to all my stories the way you did and I will especially miss that. Miss and love you more than anything on this earth!!!!! See you in my dreams Gramps. MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Your Birthday is right around the corner and by now I wouldve sent a card so I'm giving this to you now.....

Little One, I bought some gifts to take with me when I visit you on your Birthday. I got you a Happy Birthday beanie baby and the matching twin for me. I have to try to find a clear box to put it in so it doesn't get ruined. Grandma wanted me to get some silk flower arrangements and Mom has her flowers as well. As it gets closer to your Birthday I'm getting even more sad...how can that possible is what I have been thinking. Every year, I loved decorating for you and getting you gifts. You always lit up like a kid at Christmas and seeing how happy you were on your Birthday was the best feeling in the world. Mom would always get your favorite Birthday cake and you were just so excited. I still cant get over how last year I was decorating and hanging all the Casino theme Birthday decorations, ordering your cake and buying you all gifts you loved and this year I don't have you here with me. I honestly don't know how I'm going to handle going to the cemetery on your Birthday but I need to be close to you on that day. I never really understood the true definition when people say "life isn't fair" until the moment you were gone. Nothing seems fair and most of the time it feels like it was just yesterday it happened. I feel the same way I felt on Sept. 30th and the only thing that eases the pain somewhat is when I dream about you practically every night in the last 5 months. That's the only interaction I get to have with you now and I hope these dreams each night happen during the rest of my lifetime.  Love you and miss you bunches!!

 

P.S. Stacey misses hearing your voice too, she constantly kisses your picture.

Since I would always give you an early Birthday gift, I wanted to give this to you now. Can't believe last year at this time I was buying your Casino theme Birthday decorations and now I don't even have you. Your Birthday parties with Mom, Grandma and I were always one of my all time favorite memories. Hopefully we wont get more snow so Mom and I can go visit you on your Birthday. You were right when you said last year that this winter was going to be bad, we had so much snow and I just hope we get a break so we can visit you on the 16th. That's going to be so hard for me but at least I'll feel closer to you. Miss you so much and love you with all my heart.

Little One, I was in the garage on Sunday and I found so many things you had saved from when I was little. The ball I found made me think of all the weekends in the summer we would play racquet ball. Then I saw one of my Little Pony dolls and my Strawberry Shortcake. All the times we were in the garage together and for some reason I never see these. Just when I didn't think it could be possible to miss you even more, I did because lately all I think about is all the recent memories we shared but finding all these things made me think back to my childhood. I was literally always with you, I always would say you were my partner in crime. You were more like my best friend than anything. I was your shadow when I was little and then you became my shadow when I was an adult. We were inseparable! I miss you sooooo much it really hurts. See you in my dreams. Love you XOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOOXOXOXO

DADDY, TODAY IS ONE MORE DAY AND YET NOT ANY DIFFERENT THAN YESTERDAY. MY LOVE FOR YOU IS JUST AS GREAT AS IT WILL ALWAYS BE, IN OTHER WORDS UNCONDITIONLY. DADDY I HAVE KEPT MY PROMISE AS I SHARED WITH YOU REGARDING ALL MY PROMISES TO DO MY VERY BEST IN WATCHING OVER MOMMY AND DANIELLE. I'M NOT GOING TO LIE TO YOU BUT I KNOW YOU SEE JUST HOW DIFFICULT THIS IS. BUT I ALWAYS GET THIS INNER STRENGTH SIMPLY BY THINKING OF ALL THE WONDERFUL AND MEMORABLE MOMENTS WE HAVE SPENT TOGETHER. DADDY I KNOW THAT I HAVE INHERITED PRACTICALLY ALL OF YOU, EVEN DOWN TO YOUR POSTIVE ATTITUDE, EVEN WHEN TIMES SEEM TO BE SO DISMAL. I THINK OF YOU CONSTANTLY AND WILL CHERISH FOR  THE REST OF MY LIFE EVERY ASPECT OF LIFE SHARED WITH YOU. I SPENT A FEW NIGHTS AT YOUR HOUSE THE OTHER DAY. WE HAD A HUGE SNOW STORM. MOMMY SAID THAT I AM EVEN MORE STUBBORN THAN YOU. WELL GUESS WHAT I TAKE THAT AS A GREAT COMPLIMENT. AS THE SNOW FELL, I THOUGHT OF YOU SO MUCH EVEN DOWN TO WHEN YOU WOULD MAKE SURE YOU CLEANED THE SNOW OFF MY CAR. DADDY I WAS ALL READY TO COME VISIT YOU ON SUNDAY, BUT MY LIFT DID NOT SHOW UP. DONT WORRY I SEE YOU EVERYDAY BUT I DID BUY SOME ROSES AND GARDENING TOOLS FOR THE NEXT TIME. I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH AND WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER. YOU ARE THE BEST MAN I HAVE EVER MET.   LOVE MARYANN